“I am” are the two most important words in any language. Because what we put after these two small words – I am, defines our whole existence.

All the cells in your body are constantly looking for feed-back on how well you are doing. You see, your body and the existence you create around your body, is constantly being determined by the way you speak and the way you think. You are creating your reality in every moment of every day.

We all have an internal monolog running 24/7, its that voice in your head telling you to get out of bed in the morning and have a shower when you would rather stay in bed and sleep. It’s the voice you hear when you look in the mirror and see your body and say: “god you are disgusting, Yuk!”

And yes, I know we all have said that to ourselves at least ONCE in our adult lives and even maybe as a teenagers too!

Its this dialog we have with ourselves that is keeping us from ever truly being content with our lot in life, its keeping us from true happiness and true wellness.

Back to your cells; these amazing little things are constantly doing their best to maintain equilibrium, or homeostasis. And to them, they don’t know if the emotions you are sending inside are just from your head or if there is actually another person standing in front of you saying; “you’re ugly” or “you’re stupid”. All your cells know is that you are being told this, so it must be true.

When we live in a constant state of “not enough” we become not enough.

It’s really that simple!

Our cells become sick, we attract negativity and “bad luck” into our existence and then we blame the world for our misfortune.

You constantly say statements to yourself like: I am always sick every winter, I am always overlooked at work for a promotion, I am always so tired, or, I am so useless at doing that, you’re so lucky! All these statements are just the constant reinforcement and feed-back you give to your body and your body responds accordingly. You become sick every winter, you are always overlooked for a promotion at work, you are always tired, and you suck at doing everything that you have never tried before or given yourself time to get good at!

This isn’t rocket science and yet its not something that is thought to us either. We grow up and watch the adults around us complain about their bodies, they are too fat, they don’t have a big enough bum, or they shy away from foods and complain about not fitting their clothes. We see them getting on the scales and hating on their bodies when the line goes past where they think it should stop.

Then these behaviours become US. We grow up and then start hating on our bodies, hating on our abilities and hating on ourselves.

But what if each day, we woke up, looked in the mirror and said: I AM WORTHY, I AM ABUNDANT, I AM BEAUTIFUL, and I AM LOVED!!!!!

This is something I have been thinking about for a long time. I am definitely someone who is very hard on themselves and who compares themselves to EVERYONE.

So recently I decided I was going to change. There is no one else in this world who can do things like this for you. You might have conditioning from your childhood etc. but you can, at any stage, make a change!

For one week, I got up every morning and wrote on my bathroom mirror I am……..something, anything, as long as it was positive!

Then, throughout the day, I repeated this back to myself like a mantra and I pictured the writing on the mirror at home.

As the week progressed I could feel my shoulders rolling backward and my chest lifting, I found a confidence inside that hadn’t been there for many years, and I noticed I had a smile on my face at almost all times.

I generally felt better about myself and it was really nice to know I had my own back, for what was probably the first time in my whole life.

I was bullied as a young girl; for the way I looked and for whatever else I had or didn’t have. Kids can be very mean.

Growing up was tough, yet I made it through and am now somewhat a functioning audit, YAY!

However, the words spoken to me and the nasty looks I would receive, were only part of it. It was after I left primary school that I began to internalized and repeated to myself on the daily the words that had been said to me (I am not enough, I am ugly and so on) and that lead my cells to believe this to be the case.

The bullying had finished many years ago, yet I had continued to be the bully in my own life much longer than anyone else.

So, from today onwards I solemnly swear to never say another bad word out-loud or internally ever again. And, yes, I am probably going to fail at this many times in the beginning, no one is perfect at new things straight away, and guess what!? That’s OK!

But, I will try and when I catch myself going back to that old default of self-belittling, I will stop. Then I will re-affirm that I am indeed the opposite of that which ever nasty thing I was about to call myself. I will speak to myself the way I speak to my best friends, I will care for myself when I am down, and I will be my own cheerleader when I need encouragement.

Then hopefully, when I have kids someday, they will see this behaviour and it will become their default setting.

Remember, you are the one who dictates your life, you are the one who gets to choose. You can be your biggest critic or your biggest supporter.

Because truly, each and every one of us deserves true health and happiness. And most of the time it’s our own selves that get in the way of us achieving that!

So, repeat after me; I AM………..?????????????

 

SA xxx