The clincher came when a few weeks later, as I sat down for dinner one night and my Boyfriend was pouring us both a glass each of wine, I was looking longingly at the ruby red liquid filling up the glass and remarked, “Haven’t you just been waiting for this ALL day!?” My Boyfriend stopped pouring and looked at me with bemused look on his face and simply replied “No”. Oh, I thought, was I not meant to be hanging out for my nightly red?
Lifestyle
To be alone…….
I have never travelled alone. I have never wanted to nor thought that I would have fun doing so. I have flown back to my home country of New Zealand alone on multiple occasions yet I have gone straight to the comfort of my family and friends as soon as I have landed. I also … Continue reading To be alone…….
My soul’s progression and the realizations that have changed my life………..
I feel like I went through every possible spiritual undertaking; I was the lost soul, I experienced a dark night of the soul, and then I had the souls reawakening, all within the 3 years Saturn was coming home. It’s been nothing short of a rollercoaster and the lessons I have learnt these past three years have been nothing short of life changing, and all for the better......
Kiss the ground you walk upon……..
So I started my walk. I have never walked this path before, yet I have driven it a hundred time and more. So as I walked, I was astonished to see how much RUBBISH littered the sidewalk. It was extremely upsetting and I felt sadder and sadder the further I walked. Then, that social duty kicked in and I told myself that at the café I would ask for a rubbish bag that I could take with me so I could pick up the rubbish on the way back..............
My Greatest Loss……….
"I hadn’t yet had my first antenatal appoint with the midwife, that was still about 3 weeks away although the appoint letter was at home, so this would be my first ultrasound of the baby I wanted and needed so badly. I was positive that as soon as the doctor started, the screen would light up and the heart beat would be audible. Yet this wasn’t the case."
The health implications of STRESS: and what to do about it………
To de-stress in a world that is constantly overloading us with information, deadlines, demands, toxins, and STRESS, we have to disconnect from it all, so we can reconnect to ourselves........
The private pain and lonesome struggles: Endometriosis……..
"I was told a few days later of what he had found, the confirmation that it was indeed Endometriosis, and as he showed me photo’s of my procedure, he continued to talk about the risk to my fertility, the freezing of my eggs, IVF options, and the fact there was no cure….."
I am………….
We all have an internal monolog running 24/7, its that voice in your head telling you to get out of bed in the morning and have a shower when you would rather stay in bed and sleep. It’s the voice you hear when you look in the mirror and see your body and say: "god you are disgusting, Yuk!"
Turning 30………
On the 24th November, 2017, I successfully competed my 30th rotation around the Sun. Growing up, turning 30 was always portrayed in movies and on TV as this terrible and unthinkable event that would be the worst day of your life, especially if you were a female. Being a 30-year-old was not ok! Women would … Continue reading Turning 30………
My year without, Buying Any Clothes…..
There were a couple of times I had sat on my bed at a total loss as to what I could actually wear that day. But there wasn’t a single day I went out of the house naked..
Susan Andrews 